BY HEATHER SMITH
Lesbian.com
Having a crush is enough to make your head spin. You overthink everything. You spend a lot of time wondering if they like you, too. You agonize over every text, retyping it at least three times before you send it. That’s after putting more thought into one tiny message than Thomas Jefferson put into writing the Declaration of Independence.
You daydream about your crush, you annoy your friends talking about her, you’ve even nicknamed her for ease of reference (Sorry! Not sorry!). Every time your phone makes a noise, you freak out because it might be her.
Somewhere in the middle of these very real, sometimes ridiculous emotions, music falls into the mix. Every sappy song suddenly becomes about her, even the cheesy pop songs (cue big sigh). Below are eight songs currently on my own crush playlist.
Colbie Caillat, “Fallin’ for You”
This song had to make the list. You really like someone, but making yourself vulnerable is a scary thing and sometimes makes you a little crazy. Let all those feelings out and take that leap of faith. Tell your crush how you feel!
“I am tryin’ not to tell you, but I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hidin’ what I’m feelin’
But I’m tired of holdin’ this inside my head”
Katie Costello, “Cassette Tape”
Getting to know someone you like can be fun. You learn about her likes, her dislikes, and what makes her tick. But it can also be a little nerve wracking and sometimes, feels like it might be easier to just lay it all out at once.
“I wish there was a social excuse to make you a cassette tape
I’d teach you all about my life from side B to side A
Fast forward, rewind. Whenever or never mind”
Doria Roberts, “Perfect”
Everything in the beginning of a new relationship is perfect. Everything reminds you of your crush and you want everything to stay how it is right now.
“I’ve been thinking about you all night
A warm bed and a cozy fire
You put you arms around me and lift my head
And when you kiss me baby oh yeah…”
Meghan Tonjes, “Be in Want”
This song is all about that awkward stage when you’re in a state of being in want. It’s not love, it’s not lust, it’s that middle ground. You think about the other person all the time and you want her close but it makes you vulnerable and that is a scary place to be.
“And I don’t think you understand how much I want to hold you hand
And how that scares me more than anything I know
It’s getting hard to breathe, hard to be here alone without you
And every part of me is crying out
Oh you know I want you”
Tove Lo, “Paradise”
Butterflies are one of the best parts of a new crush. They’re fluttering around all the time when you see or talk to her. Sometimes they flutter about a little too much, but it’s still one of the best feelings ever.
“Being with you, my natural high
Still got every single butterfly
Just what they all wish that they had
So intense, it’s driving me mad”
Sara Bareilles, “I Choose You”
This song is sweet. Maybe you’ve gotten it all wrong before, but with this one, you see all the possibilities and are happy in the hope that maybe this time, you will get it right.
“I’ll unfold before you
What I’ve strung together
The very first words
Of a lifelong love letter”
Melissa Ferrick, “Will You Be The One”
All the uncertainty swirls around in your brain. Could this really be it? Will this be the one you’ve been looking for?
“Will you be the one I’ve wanted
Will you read my mind
Will you ask me where I hurt
and heal me with your eyes
Will I look at you with wonder
and never doubt our love
Yeah, could you be the one
that I’ve been dreaming of”
Tegan and Sara, “Closer”
That feeling of a new crush when everything is fresh and exciting and you’re trying to take things slow, but all you really want to do is jump in head first. You just want to be close to her and you spend a lot of time trying to figure out ways to accomplish that.
“All I want to get is a little bit closer
All I want to know is, can you come a little closer?
Here comes the breath before we get a little bit closer
Here comes the rush before we touch, come a little closer”
What songs would be on your crush playlist? Tell us in the comments!
Heather Smith is the creator and producer of Rubyfruit Radio, a podcast featuring the best in female artists.
